Lost In Beauty-

Monday, June 19, 2006

i am so so so SICK of everything.
really sick of everything luhs. 0:
wads all this rubbish man.
why isit tht we must always listen.
we have our own views, we want to make the decision
ultimately its us ok?
not you all. i know its wasnt fair to say so.

i am not here hinding anythng. this wad how i felt.
cant blame them for behaving like tht also.
can understand lars. (:
please kindly try and understand US.and i mean US.

i am somehow afraid, there's fear inside me.
but but! i dont think ANYone out there understand.
maybe one or two. my bestie.
they are Wonderful.
without them i don't think i am able to carry on with all this.

am i like kind of irresponsible?
i am so sorry lars.
seriously,i dont like people to force me to do thngs tht i dont want to do.
i'll just do things tht i think is correct.
believing in my own judgement maybe.
?

i am just not fit to be one luhhs.

hmm. i've totally NO confident now.
not even a single bit.
i shall just believe in DESTINY, FATE.
shall ask god wad is it tht will truely happen to me and you.

feeling down right now.
): not in any mood luhs.
aint the one?
its time for me to. yups.

the beauty exposed ;